Back at home - the unexpected version
Jul. 3rd, 2003 11:42 pmAlthough I didn't think I'd be coming home until Saturday, I got an urgent phone call from my mother tonight asking me if I could help out at a friend's store tomorrow. The friend's father died last night, her mother is extremely ill, her husband is rather sick and her daughter was rushed to hospital today. I agreed immediately.
So I'm freezing at home instead of being in my nice warm bed. But I have my Harry Potter book back from my sister and I have that lovely warm feeling that comes from being around family. (Most of the time)
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I'm feeling awfully confused at the moment in a way I haven't felt since I was at high school. My friends from uni might have drifted away a bit now, but when we were closer we had very few disagreements and when we were pissed with each other we let each other know about it.
I don't like being made to feel guilty for unspecified reasons. I don't like whispering campaigns and I don't like people repeating things I've told them in confidence. I don't like trying to make amends to be met with nothing but silence. I don't like being ignored because I'm happy or talkative or knowledgeable.
High school was a miserable hell hole of abuse, bullying and unpopularity. I can't stand the thought real life might be the same way.
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Kate - if you're reading (is anyone reading?) - big hugs. I'll be back in Brissie Sunday if you want to call.
Liz - did you get my beta? I can send it again if you'd like. I can redo it if you'd like a beta not done under the influence of food poisoning.
So I'm freezing at home instead of being in my nice warm bed. But I have my Harry Potter book back from my sister and I have that lovely warm feeling that comes from being around family. (Most of the time)
~*~
I'm feeling awfully confused at the moment in a way I haven't felt since I was at high school. My friends from uni might have drifted away a bit now, but when we were closer we had very few disagreements and when we were pissed with each other we let each other know about it.
I don't like being made to feel guilty for unspecified reasons. I don't like whispering campaigns and I don't like people repeating things I've told them in confidence. I don't like trying to make amends to be met with nothing but silence. I don't like being ignored because I'm happy or talkative or knowledgeable.
High school was a miserable hell hole of abuse, bullying and unpopularity. I can't stand the thought real life might be the same way.
~*~
Kate - if you're reading (is anyone reading?) - big hugs. I'll be back in Brissie Sunday if you want to call.
Liz - did you get my beta? I can send it again if you'd like. I can redo it if you'd like a beta not done under the influence of food poisoning.