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melwilRight now the 4pm session of X-Man 2 would be about half an hour in. There's no chance that I won't find out what happens in it, because ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lizbee couldn't keep a spoiler secret if her life depended on it. Hopefully they were able to get my money back because that was ten bucks I really couldn't afford in the first place.
I'd love to see X-Men 2 with Matt because I'm sure he'd enjoy it. Unfortunatly his work schedule and dancing for me means we don't get to go out anymore. Maybe Jacinda will want to see it with me. What do you think, Jac? Hugh Jackman has his shirt off a lot?
My stomach is tumble turning and I'm sure that real food (or unreal food) is going to kick off another reflux attack. My eye is still irritating me and I'm ready to gouge it out ith a spork. To top it all off, I'm coming down with a headache, though that might be caused by stress.
Might go to bed early tonight, try to catch up on some sleep. Problem is, whenever I try to go to sleep early, I can't get my mind to stop worrying and I end up turning on the light and reading.
I'm forgetting things at the moment. Like Kate and I were looking at videos the other day and we went to do something else and I couldn't remember that we'd just been looking at videos. And just before, just then, I couldn't remember what I'd done last night. It's a little terrifying, but no one tell my mother. She'll nag me until I go to a doctor.
Found out today that Centrelink have a counselling service for unemployed people whose minds are being affected by their unemployment. I should find the number I have to ring for that.
I realise that it would all be easier if I had a job. I could be all involved in that and then ,missing out on things wouldn't worry me as much because at least there would be some sort of purpose in my life. I could save up some money, move to the South side of Brisbane and live with Matt and actually see him more than once a week. I wouldn't feel so worthless.
Most of the jobs I applied for in the last two days asked me my age. That's illegal once you're over 21. I'm not going to get those jobs.
I'm putting so much time into Tearstains Universe which is really stupid because the only people who really read it are my friends and I can't get it onto Fiction Alley because of Draconian submission rules. (I don't believe it's a matter of quality. Some of the stories there are bad enough to rival ff.net)
Anyway, that's quite enough of being all sorry for myself. Must go find myself a smile and cheer up the people around me. Might go shell some Macadamia nuts until I feel zen again.
And a meme:
you are Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad.
boring, heavy on symbols, and overly
intelligent and dramatic. the horror, the
horror. ick.
What Famous literary Work Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
ETA: I just heard my name on Big Brother. Melina is not exactly a common name, so that was a little strange. (Do do do do)
lizbee couldn't keep a spoiler secret if her life depended on it. Hopefully they were able to get my money back because that was ten bucks I really couldn't afford in the first place.I'd love to see X-Men 2 with Matt because I'm sure he'd enjoy it. Unfortunatly his work schedule and dancing for me means we don't get to go out anymore. Maybe Jacinda will want to see it with me. What do you think, Jac? Hugh Jackman has his shirt off a lot?
My stomach is tumble turning and I'm sure that real food (or unreal food) is going to kick off another reflux attack. My eye is still irritating me and I'm ready to gouge it out ith a spork. To top it all off, I'm coming down with a headache, though that might be caused by stress.
Might go to bed early tonight, try to catch up on some sleep. Problem is, whenever I try to go to sleep early, I can't get my mind to stop worrying and I end up turning on the light and reading.
I'm forgetting things at the moment. Like Kate and I were looking at videos the other day and we went to do something else and I couldn't remember that we'd just been looking at videos. And just before, just then, I couldn't remember what I'd done last night. It's a little terrifying, but no one tell my mother. She'll nag me until I go to a doctor.
Found out today that Centrelink have a counselling service for unemployed people whose minds are being affected by their unemployment. I should find the number I have to ring for that.
I realise that it would all be easier if I had a job. I could be all involved in that and then ,missing out on things wouldn't worry me as much because at least there would be some sort of purpose in my life. I could save up some money, move to the South side of Brisbane and live with Matt and actually see him more than once a week. I wouldn't feel so worthless.
Most of the jobs I applied for in the last two days asked me my age. That's illegal once you're over 21. I'm not going to get those jobs.
I'm putting so much time into Tearstains Universe which is really stupid because the only people who really read it are my friends and I can't get it onto Fiction Alley because of Draconian submission rules. (I don't believe it's a matter of quality. Some of the stories there are bad enough to rival ff.net)
Anyway, that's quite enough of being all sorry for myself. Must go find myself a smile and cheer up the people around me. Might go shell some Macadamia nuts until I feel zen again.
And a meme:
you are Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad.
boring, heavy on symbols, and overly
intelligent and dramatic. the horror, the
horror. ick.
What Famous literary Work Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
ETA: I just heard my name on Big Brother. Melina is not exactly a common name, so that was a little strange. (Do do do do)
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on 2003-05-01 04:18 am (UTC)A few questions before answering this one, When are you planning it for? Who's paying for ir :D And Who's Hugh Jackman?
Cya
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on 2003-05-01 07:18 am (UTC)no subject
on 2003-05-01 07:25 am (UTC)I was also tired and very uncomfortable in my 'hire me' clothes, so I went home. Jac might see it with me.
Re:
on 2003-05-01 08:14 am (UTC)My dancing teacher's in the shits with me, so I doubt I'll be teaching dancing much longer. I am looking for another job. Might consider dropping my diploma and getting a traineeship for cert III. I can't find any diploma traineeships, and if I do cert III I can always go back later and do diploma, right?!
Oh, and you're not the only one who has a degree and can't get a job. My friend just finished her bachelor in marine biology (or something like that) and now is at tafe doing cert II in business admin, just so she can get a job! What a wierd world we live in!!!